Love

"It's worth it, all the risks, all the fears, all the therapies and challenges and the uncertainty of the future. It's worth it because love is bigger and wilder and more spectacular than you can imagine."

One day at the very beginning of this path , just a week or so after first finding Noah's picture, I had just finished praying and was looking at his picture for the 100th time ,

and this huge wave of emotion came over me , the kind that almost knocks you to the floor , and I started sobbing in my kitchen as this thought came to my mind, with such clarity it was as if someone was directly speaking to me

 "what if he is your son, Down syndrome and all?"

 "What if he is meant to be with your family and you walk away because of Down syndrome ?" 

 

"What if you turn your back on your son because you are scared?"

You see , one of our biggest fears as this idea of adding Noah to our family came into play was could we really do another child , a third child, with Down syndrome? 

What would that mean for all of us?

And I vividly remember that moment last fall when I sobbed as this thought came over me like a ton of bricks 

and I realized that regardless of this boys "diagnosis" he was calling our name 

Regardless of how scared we were or how many unanswered questions we had , he was calling to us 

and how grateful I am that we heard and listened to his call 

Because he is one special little boy 

Who is much more than a diagnosis

Placed in our path for a reason 

And we can't wait to see what his life holds 

We don't know what any child's future holds, disability or not, 

And with every child comes risk with uncertainty and unknowns about the future 

But one thing we do know is that their future should hold love

Lots ...

And lots ...

Of love !!

"It's worth it, all the risks, all the fears, all the therapies and challenges and the uncertainty of the future. It's worth it because love is bigger and wilder and more spectacular than you can imagine.