A year ago today.....
Our driver drove us up to a large building
Hidden behind a grove of trees and surrounded by a fence on all sides
Behind those gates, was a building full of children,
children who were hidden away from the world,
You do not walk down the orphanage halls and hear laughter, or the joyful squeals of children,
you just hear silence....
an eery, lonely, silence.
We walked down that dark hallway eagerly anticipating the moment we had waited months for,
the moment one little boy had waited his whole life for,
Was this finally real? What would this first moment with our son be like? What would we feel? What would he look like?
The moment the nanny walked into the waiting room, carrying a tiny fragile baby in a white terry cloth pajama, my heart wanted to leap out of my chest! Through my tears and my joy I knew my heart was complete.
At that moment when I finally held this little boy in my arms and he melted into me as if to say
"thank you for coming for me! ".....nothing else mattered.
Because HE mattered
He mattered.......and a year ago today All was finally going to be right in his world
As a friend said "So many parts of his reality before us were hard and life altering and scary"
Yet he held on
He was sick, He only weighed 10 pounds , He had been aspirating for 10 months, had constant colds and congestion affecting his lungs, he made loud sounds in part due to the sickness and in part due to the fact that for 10 months he had not had any other form of stimulation or comfort other then his own sounds and his little hand
never felt the touch of love,
Now he pulls in closer when he feels your cheek close to his,
Today not only wants to be kissed, but he blows kisses to others.
A year ago, he could only hold his head up for a few minutes, could not sit up or use his legs at all....the only world he knew was the ceiling above him .
Today he wont sit still as he is continuing to discover the world around him and strengthen his body to take him there,
Today he feels love from the sounds of a family around him
We may have saved him that day, but when all is said and done, I believe he will have been the one who saved us.
If you ever question whether miracles still happen, try falling in love with an orphan
On this day we joined hearts and started a new path together,
a path full of unexpected miracles
a path that continues to change us all for the better,
through its ups and downs, the constant is love
and "Where there is great love, there are always miracles"
Happy Family Day Noah Bear!